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do you remember what was going on in your life one year ago???

for me hmmm well i was very very stressed out with finals (as usual), and i was pretty damn depressed (ask anybody who used to talk to me back then) and i was also really reclusive and lonely

i was breaking down in the middle of the day and calling my mother on the phone in tears to come and take me home because i hated school and i hated life and i didn't want to and really couldn't deal with anything anymore.

we rock.

I was on the verge of depression. Now that I think about it, I still am

A journal entry from a year ago today:

"Uuuuuuuuuuugh. I'm so fucking tired. All I wanna do is forget about my homework and go back and sleep... Blah.

Got more blood tested today. Got dismissed from school at 1:45, went to the doctor's, waited, got blood drawn, went home. Then around 4 I fell asleep and I didn't wake up until, like...8:30. My dad kept coming in and waking me up, asking me if I was okay...I was just tired. Wanted to sleep.

I didn't get enough sleep last night cause I stayed up until around 1:10, watching a movie. You see, just recently I've gotten really interested in The Crow. I saw the last 20 minutes of the original movie a week ago, and then saw the rest of the movie over the weekend... I like the actual concept of the movie, and the characters a bit more than I like the actual movie itself...I think it's too fast paced, even though that's the point. Too much killing too soon, not enough time for character development and such.

Last night I tried to tape the sequel (The Crow: City of Angels)... Wouldn't tape, so I stayed up to watch it. I need to rent it or something, because it's not on again until late late Sunday night, and when I watched it last night I had it turned down really low so my parents wouldn't hear it and come down and yell at me for staying up when I knew I shouldn't have.

I asked my mom to bring me to Blockbuster on the way to the doctor's office, and she said no, because she doesn't wanna spend anymore, and she doesn't want me spending the whole $20 I have left for Christmas shopping. Dammit, I'll have that spent on, like, one gift. What's the point if I'm just gunna need more money anyways?"

Other entries from December show me being depressed and melodramatic.

i should look at mine good idea

Well, exactly a year ago from yesterday I was at a much awaited Creed/OLP concert and one of the best days of my life. I was just going through with life and looking forward to every moment of it.

Now I'm doing what everyone else did a year ago! Yay me.

about this time too i made a kick ass blanket fort and lived in it for a few days

my friends made me take it apart cause they said it wasn't healthy to live in a blanket fort.

I cleaned my keyboard and was disgusted with how dirty it actually was.

*mourns over the loss of the beloved blanket fort*

it was such a great fort.

one year ago i was single.......

wait a sec....

im still single now

i was single last year too

but i'm not anymore


15 days

you guys are so cute together

i broke up with my gf of two years rigth around this time last year

last year I was a loser with stupid friends and a stupid girlfriend . . . but not anymore!

Last year...this time. *thinks*

My cousins from Australia either had just shown up or were just about to...
I was already counting down for my olp concert on Jan 24th....
my grandmother was still alive....
I was fairly depressed, not horribly...
I had one friend, and I didn't particularily like her...
I was counting down til christmas break because i hated school so much...

That kind of thing

One year ago I was...not over Justin and just about to meet Jared. Still single.

entry from 7 dec last year:

Susan's here. She's typing on Lady Maxwell, my WWII typewriter. There are strange sounds emanating from it. I hope nothing breaks. Mmm.. chocolate.

hmm a year ago today.

i was rushing to get college aps in before xmas break.
i had no idea where i would be this year, it was all very frantic.
i was living in the haze we call senioritis.
i wandered the halls of my school like some aimless waif.
i had never kissed anyone.
i had never been drunk.
my hair was red.


hmm... unfortunately besides those things listed above i don't think my life is that different. although, everything is a lot more on track than it was last year and i'm working a lot harder. not to mention partying harder. and my hair's a lot longer and browner and has bangs.

Let's see. One year ago.

I was with Lauren and happy.
I was doing well with all my classes.
I actually went to my classes.
I was unemployed.
I studied for my finals, or already had them by now.
I bought my first Koufax CD.
I was excited that Lauren decided to get her own dorm room so we could just sleep together.
I felt good.

Oh how my life has changed. It's bad when I long for a girl that took me for granted. I guess I've grown tired of waking up alone. I just want to be somewhat happy. That's not asking too much, is it? OK, I guess it is.