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Joey wrote:

Mechanical Thought wrote:my relationships (I feel distant and cold toward people lately) and my social life (which has turned itself merely into drinking frenzies to drown out my tribulations). I feel like I have no one there for me, and like I have so much to say and no one to talk to.
*sigh*

Minus the drinking frenzies, that's how I've been feeling for the past few months. My LJ has seen a lot of venting and novel like entries. It honestly helps though .. don't know if you think that would help or not though.

I'm sorry your birthday is turning out shitty

Lately I feel the same way too. I honestly feel like I have no one to talk to anymore. All I ever do is fight with my parents, my friends just seem to care about them selfs. When they need someone to talk to I'm there but when I need someone to talk too suddenly they're too busy. Work is hell and stresses me out and I feel that lately everyone I meet just annoys the hell out of me. And boys just plan out suck. I really want to just run away from everything.

I hope you're birthday turns out good. Mine is in 7 days and just thinking about it makes me sad.

you can talk to me

we best budz

carnival_7 wrote:Lately I feel the same way too. I honestly feel like I have no one to talk to anymore. All I ever do is fight with my parents, my friends just seem to care about them selfs. When they need someone to talk to I'm there but when I need someone to talk too suddenly they're too busy. Work is hell and stresses me out and I feel that lately everyone I meet just annoys the hell out of me. And boys just plan out suck. I really want to just run away from everything.

I hope you're birthday turns out good. Mine is in 7 days and just thinking about it makes me sad.

Yeah that's a pretty shitty feeling. When you have friends who don't hesitate to tell you "we're so close" and yet they don't do anything to actually help you. Even when you make it so obvious that you just need to talk/vent or whatever and still they don't care .. you know, they had a rough day watching tv or something and need to go to bed early, rather than talk to a 'good friend' a little longer. Grr ...

I know how you feel..My friends and family don't even invite me places anymore..No one really talks to me anymore..And the only time my family calls me is when they want something..I feel so lonely sometimes and its not a good feeling

i had a bad day.

i'm so close to ditching all my wonderful friends just because i can't handle a little drama.

I had a bad morning today.........I got in 18 holes of golf, and I shot terribly. The only thing that made me feel better was getting in the car and listen to that 2Pac song where they say "every other city we go, every other video, no matter where I go, I see the same hoe"

Then I listened to the Hootie and the Blowfish Greatest Hits CD that I put together.

from bad to worse has never been more true

LIAM wrote:i'm 14... i'm overprotective on myself. Everyone i meet is a convict!

the only convict i kno is myself im locked in the jail cell of loooooooove

urk.

You know who's had many bad days lately? Planet Earth. Let's all do our part and make every day a beautiful day!

looky looky, he's themed his spam.

feel like I am letting my depressive moods take over my life … in terms of my school work (I’m slacking ... I feel no will to want to succeed anymore), my relationships (I feel distant and cold toward people lately)

Hmmm...sounds like the story of my life. Ok...not life, but the past few months. I seriously just DON'T know what the fuck to do with my life anymore. All I know is I'm supposed to be in school, but by Christmas I have to know what I'm majoring, do I know? Uhm no. No clue. Do I want to move out? YES! Do I have money? NO! And if I do move out, I'm afraid these feelings will suck me up and lock me in my room w/o my family around. I feel like a sad four year old. To top it all off, not a soul that I know personally knows how I really feel about anything. They think I'm funny and driven. Not so. I hate myself, alot.

I sympathize with everyone who has posted in this thread! Life sucks, and I wish us all luck.

I never used to be this way, so I can see Jim's pov in a way. I used to think, my heavens, how can people hate life? I see now. But I am grateful that I don't live in the Congo, that is one good thing.

If anyone wants to talk, IM me, cause I'm real good about talking to people and pretending I'm happy for their sake

* Captain Planet * wrote:You know who's had many bad days lately? Planet Earth. Let's all do our part and make every day a beautiful day!

you are my hero.

Mechanical Thought wrote:my relationships (I feel distant and cold toward people lately) and my social life (which has turned itself merely into drinking frenzies to drown out my tribulations). I feel like I have no one there for me, and like I have so much to say and no one to talk to.
*sigh*

I'm completely feeling ya there. I just get frustrated with the whole relationship/dating thing anymore. Three years of college and I have had six dates, most not making a second date, all of which dissapated within a week and a half.
What's even more tormenting is that I get to be good friends with two of my former dates. I see them both on a regular basis and get to listen to all the problems, hear all of the random sex stories, and just smile and nod .... not much else I can do.
And of course all of my friends are great talkers, love to tell me everything about them, but I really don't think most give a rats ass about what's going on with me. Just as long as I'm there, listening sympathetically. Last time I had someone to listen to me on any significant level was ..... May of 2000.
I just don't know anymore; I'm going to turn 21 a week from Monday and I don't think I've been this depressed since .... well May of 2000. I'm disgusted by the thought that I'll either be alone at thirty with a cat living in Minneapolis, or marry some psychopath like my father did.
It's not like I'm unreasonable; I realize that I'm skinny, have some confidence issues, and probably smoke and drink too much, but still, c'mon besides establishing the bottom of my standards with the crazy stalker girl I dated, I'm not that picky ...... just no one shows interest ...... or if there was a spark of interest, give it a week and a half, it'll go away.
And I'm tired of everyone telling me, "oh don't worry, you'll find someone," SCREW YOU, if you're telling me that! 90% of the people telling me that are in long term relationships .... yea, i'm going to believe YOU, spend as many years as I have pathetic and alone, then YOU come talk to me about how I'll find someone.
Shoot, this is beginning to feel like a journal entry, so I'll end it like I usually end my journal:
"f*ck it, i'm going to bed
Me"

curtman16 wrote:

And I'm tired of everyone telling me, "oh don't worry, you'll find someone,"

I very much agree with you on that. When i complain bout how i never will find anyone , everyone freaking says that to me and it pisses me off cause they don't know that.

I'm not that picky ...... just no one shows interest ...... or if there was a spark of interest, give it a week and a half, it'll go away.

I definately understand you when you say that. My friends always go in and out of relationships. People show intrest in them, but I never seem to get that. At least you have had someone's interest, even if it was shortlived. No one has ever really shown any attraction toward me.

Or if they do it never goes anywhere Yeah, I don't get it.

i meet girls over the internet

you should try it!