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NO HARPOONING ME!!!

*harpoons nikki*

^5 RUSTY!

If you had actually been harpooned, this would be the more appropriate smiley:

Hmm, true.

I have so many phobias and fears... i know i'm fashionably late because now everyone is spamming or whatev but yeah... lets see here

First off, I have anxiety problems ANYWAY, so.... yeah. generalized anxiety disorder

I have a fear of not being able to breathe.

I know now that I get tense without realizing it due to the fact that my body makes too much nor-epinephrine *nor-adrenaline* and i get scared (chemically) alot easier than "normal"... and i dont notice it, so my bodys tense, my muscles dont get enough oxygen or something, and i feel like im not breathing enough, so i breathe faster without really noticing anything.

Soon enough this triggers my rediculous anxiety. My feet and hands go numb sometimes when i get freaked out about this, so ive found that yoga works wonders... lol... but anyway i found i was so afraid of getting these feelings that I would get panicky, then have a panic attack, or close to one. Just cuz i was tense. heh.

So yeah. Im also afraid of spiders. and Crawly things.

I am afraid of people leaving me. Unless i'm pissed off at them. I have/had severe separation anxiety issues, used to be to the point where i would not stay at home if i were left alone. I'd always drive around to a friends place, go online and chat, or talk on the phone, ANYTIME i was alone besides sleeping, when i was able to. Or else i'd just freak.

I used to have SI issues too so :S yeah. I would do that for many reasons, never wanting to die obviously OH and i have a HUGE ASS fear of death omg Im so paranoid my heart is just... gonna STOP BEATing - partially because of that not being able to breathe phobiathingery. I knew almost right away that i was FINE but my mind was never able to make my body believe it and i would still FEEL those things like tingling or tightness in my chest, no matter how much of a psyche i would put on myself that i was OK. Alot of times just ended in some switches to my arms or legs and hiding that rather than try to explain these things to people, cuz... i mean its weird. lol IM WEIRD :-P But at least I know it


I am on Paxil now and doing sooooooo much better. Well along with years of therapy cuz my mom happened to have a good job so it was kinda free - ish. yay. even though they fired her *booo* LOL

By the way. I used to and still do that keyboard in your h ead thing, except I have this tendency to wiggle my toes or fingers like mentally...... like.. er.. if noones around i would sometimes air type things i was reading so I would remember them better, even with my toes. what a freak. LOL

I love my freakish qualities though. Its what makes my mind how it is today. LOL Sorry for such a long post. fbut if you got this far, you get a gold star

Sometimes I feel like PillZ-EE from Foamy. LOL

http://www.illwillpress.com <--- My Lourd and Master

PS Squirrels and Rats are ADORABLE and their popularity status should be upgraded. I almost got into a car accident cuz i didnt wanna run over a squirrel... too cute.. i would cry too much over it - lol

and I have two pet rats - Freddy, and VanFaceHead (My stoner friend named them. Shes.... Silly.) I rescued them from her cuz she wasnt taking care of them

Pyramanica_Naveedess wrote:PS Squirrels and Rats are ADORABLE and their popularity status should be upgraded. I almost got into a car accident cuz i didnt wanna run over a squirrel... too cute.. i would cry too much over it - lol

I guess this kinda fits in this thread, actually... but that's one of the main reasons why I don't drive and never want to. If I ever ran over an animal, I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I still feel bad for killing a butterfly when I was like, 5 or 6 years old.

So yeah, that's kind of a phobia, I suppose.

how is that a phobia


thats like me saying


i have a fear of cutting peoples throats then tearing out their eyes and jamming them in their sliced open throat

nikki4982 wrote:

Pyramanica_Naveedess wrote:PS Squirrels and Rats are ADORABLE and their popularity status should be upgraded. I almost got into a car accident cuz i didnt wanna run over a squirrel... too cute.. i would cry too much over it - lol

I guess this kinda fits in this thread, actually... but that's one of the main reasons why I don't drive and never want to. If I ever ran over an animal, I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I still feel bad for killing a butterfly when I was like, 5 or 6 years old.

So yeah, that's kind of a phobia, I suppose.

A truck driving in front of me hit a deer a couple of weeks ago. The poor thing didn't die right away and it was trying to crawl into the woods, but it couldn't because it's legs were broken. Oh my god, it was the saddest thing I've ever seen. I wanted to help it so bad.

Pyramanica_Naveedess wrote:
I used to have SI issues too so :S yeah.

Me too! I used to subscribe to Sports Illustrated, but I haven't for a few years. I still have a bunch of the issues though. Now I just buy the Swimsuit issue.

Lando wrote:

Pyramanica_Naveedess wrote:
I used to have SI issues too so :S yeah.

Me too! I used to subscribe to Sports Illustrated, but I haven't for a few years. I still have a bunch of the issues though. Now I just buy the Swimsuit issue.

Lovely, smartass.

You've always known that my behind is of above average intelligence!

http://public.fotki.com/pyramanicanavee ... _1417.html See the hippie with her dreadlocks.

I can never get that to work. To make text the actual link. I gwowl at thee, bbcode + html.


I have a phobia of HTML

Nice dreads!

That should've been in the CMers picture thread, though.



Oh, and that deer story?

Maybe she posted it here to see if anyone has a fear of dreads?